Leaving it to the cosmos

 Hi fei you probs won't see this anytime soon because when was the last time you updated your blog gurrrrrl but Thank you for all the impromptus and heart to hearts and night walks. I'm always walking whenever I'm with you haha (which is a good thing). I'm not always an angel so thank you for still sticking with me and tolerating all shitz. Love you to twomenbagelhouse and back:-)

SO glad I got to do this year's color run with these two cuties this year! Mom and elayne hehe couldn't have asked for a better sister for the day:-)

 You'll-need-a-moment-because-its-too-good Toast // Dessert Project Sg

 My no.1 hottie and clingy

 No sun but still fun HAHA our beach day was kinda fail cos we didn't get to tan but because y'all so retarded I had an awesome time

Tote from Unusual Felines:-)

I think the post menstrual symptoms are here because I feel emotional af right now. And just the whole of today. And also yesterday and the day before. I just wish I could stay in Singapore:-( Why does staying in singapore seem more exciting than traveling to Shanghai for Intern now? I always thought I was dying to get out of Singapore but I guess not. I'm gonna be homesick af somebody help destroy that visa application:-(
+ I feel like I'm suddenly so much closer to knowing you but then I'm leaving soon so idek…
On a more positive note, the past week was so good spending precious time with my girls (and attempting to sneak in time for studying). I'm so glad we're spending so much time together before I go. Ya'll are really the rainbows idk the gold or like the lights in my life. I wouldn't have been happier without you guys. And I can only Thank God for that.
Also, can't wait to spend time with family this weekend and after my paper. Faking burden paper in the way of all plans FAK
Okay I'm off:-)
Workout + bagels with clingy tmr omg so damn excited

Slightly overwhelmed

New Book: Norwegian woods 

(Haven't gotten down to reading it)

Oriole's Cold Brew to go! (Y)

 Two Men Bagel House 

Cream Cheese // Porky // A B.L.T. // Lox 

(Thanks for the drinks on the house because we're such regulars HAHA)

 PS. Cafe @ Ann Siang Hill 

Chicken Parmigiano // Chargrilled Cheeseburger // PS. Truffle Shoestring Fries // Portobello Mushroom soup

Hiiii
Haven't updated in pretty long but it wasn't because I was lazy or anything. I was just really busy for a period of time and things are starting to get busy again (That's if I manage to get myself back in the grind) :-(

Nonetheless, the past week was filled with meet ups with my luvs (twice full strength wooooo).
And today, mom, bro and I hung out after so long. I think we live too busily. I constantly wish that time wouldn't pass so quickly. Because it's easy to miss the little things that we should have paid attention to. To miss the essence of living. I don't want to be 40 or older and realize that I should have done more or lived more fulfilling when I was younger. I want no regrets.

Its two weeks to the last paper and three weeks to flying off to Shanghai. There's still assignments, presentations and so many things to be completed not including any preparation for Shanghai. Five months of being away from my country, family, friends, my dog and just being so far from home. I feel bits of excitement but for the most part, I'm worried. I wonder how I'll cope with missing home and everyone and as independent as I feel I am, will I manage over there??

Being the over thinker that I am, I'm even worried about the changes I'll feel when I return from Shanghai. The changes that occurred while I wasn't around/ Will my dog's health deteriorate/ Will everyone be safe and sound while I'm away. I almost don't want to think about the day I say goodbye at the airport because it leaves me in tears each time. I know. Five months is not even that long but it's the longest I've been away. And when I think of it in a way that when I'm back, it would be 2016, it scares me a little haha.. Also, I'll be missing the birthday celebration of so many loved ones. My mom, brother, grandpa and Fei. I foresee myself writing cards and making trips to the post office pretty often.

Anyhow, I just can't seem to find the motivation for these last two weeks of sam 3.1. I feel more caught up with spending more time with my loved ones and just doing the things I like doing. I DON'T KNOW:-( Will everything just fall in the right place for me please..

For now, Color Run on Saturday will really keep me going!
Have a good week y'all:-)

Have Faith

Two Men Bagel House

Cake Spade

My title is legit because I legit saw Faith 5 times this week.
Annoying bij who says "ye hai hao" to everything I say.
The week hasn't even ended but I'm just going to conclude it now..Last weekend was the most weekend-unfeeling-weekend ever and today feels like Friday because it's been such a long "week".

I'm so mentally, physically and emotionally exhausted. School/ overseas internship/ school-unrelated stuff got me crying/ brooding/ imagining things and basically over thinking and driving myself to a core. I just want to curl up and not know about anything that's happening around me. Hibernate if it sounds more feasible but not really. When I have this much to say, the thoughts running in my mind must be a thousand times more. I hate when time is not on my side, when I have to choose studying over doing a workout/ mugging over reading a book/ staying home over visiting grandpa. I am unhappy when I'm this restricted.

I also hate when I behave like a teen (it does not feel like I'm one year from leaving teen hood). I want to know someone I don't even know. And talk to him when I don't know what's in it for me. The amount of time I spent having a debate with myself is beyond sense. And it hasn't got me anywhere from where I originally was. I still don't have faith in myself.

I've had my instagram dp for the longest time but I only truly related yesterday.

An unsustainable bulb / placed where it is so idealistically / barely feeding light to anything or anyone / it's attempting but flickering 

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Smoked salmon sandwich // Earl Grey Cheesecake (really good!) // Dark chocolate tart

 Penny University 

Oreo (short of ice cream its only all cream) // Sweet Potato Bingsu

@ Nunsaram Orchard Gateway 

 Matcha Bingsu @ Tom N Toms Coffee beats Nunsaram hands downnnnn

 Flower Arrangement Workship by Fiorella Bouquet

@ Homestolife I12 Katong with mommy:-)

 Book: Colorless Tsukuru Tazaki and His Years of Pilgrimage (Good read!!)

 Coincidence at its best :-)

 Toss & Turn Salad by Cedele (One of those things I can have every single day with no second thoughts)

Hazelnut Crumble // Chocolate Ice cream

@ Awfully Chocolate

 Most grainy picture in a millennium but with my girl<3

Apologies for the most jumbled up posts of pictures from 2-3 weeks ago.

Updating this space didn't come to mind until now, due to hectic school:-( 

Went to NDP with brother yesterday before meeting abbi and co at Zouk. I think the best part of last night was sitting down for Bangers and Mash at 3.45 a.m. it was so good..

No school tomorrow because I figured I'll be more productive at home than going to school for a couple of hours. 

Anddd I have to catch up on sleep so that I can really get in the grind tomorrow

BYE